Mind In Solitude

I heard an unfamiliar screech when I started the car this morning, so I got out the car, walked around, looked under the hood, popped it and then looked inside – that just about ends my knowledge on how to fix a car.

Someone’s had enough of that level!

I guess it’s been decided. As much as I try to keep things as general as possible here, I have decided to venture off into something else other than this program that I have been working with.

 First thing on my mind was either to be transferred somewhere else, or find another place (as I have already been) to work in, but is it me or online applications are taking hella long? Almost like other companies are very primitive and would rather that applicants walk in? Cost cutting? Hiring (promotions) internally? I dunno, but the sites online says that there are vacancies.

I don’t know how it can be related but a “sense of entitlement” and people’s complacency in the office is another ingredient that is in the “disaster” recipe. 

I get really sick and tired of all this. All the considerations that I’ve made, all the sacrifices, and all the “trying” I’ve been doing. Sometimes you just wish you can pause everything and just disappear for a while. To think. To cope up. And to get the strength to go back to all of this. It wasn’t like this in the beginning, but through it all, I somehow lost the enthusiasm that I once had.